The Diary Project

2021
November

Turkey
But not on Turkey Day!

Important 'Facts'
Such as This
Elucidated Below


Let's work on Christmas, soon.

Hey! Did you know it's World Series Time? Well, neither did I... not until The Infamous Fourth Game (assuming it was The Fourth Game) and the related Debatable Invites hit The News. So, guess what? Those Freebie Tickets paid for themselves in Marketing Publicity.

LEGO: Childhood Bedroom. I'd consolidate the closets (two into one) and add at least two more full height windows. I'm wanting the space for other (Sorting) projects. So, I'll likely put away, stripping the base, but leaving the base whole.

{Side-By-Side His & Hers Desks (and/or Tables), of which one seems (not my job, so what do I know, but it seems) to be used as a landing pad and another which tends to support a single sequential project, one after the other. But it is often empty.}

DREAM: Rooms with multiple exits (such as those churches I've recently discussed) can easily be seen as sorting centers or switches: ala The Prosecutor's "Liar!" or The Priest's "Should I trust Him?"

The Easy Way is hardly ever The Right Way.


Can Ownership of Executing Code be delegated to a Block-Chain? Can a Block-Chain be Self-Executing enough so as to be in Complete Control of its Execution Parameters? What is Executed? When? And Why? {The simple answer is no.}

Η: H, Hypothesis, Posit {a syntax which is unlikely to be carried forward as H & Η (Η) look very much the same}

Η: Self-Determinate Block-Chains are possible. Though, if this is untrue, I'm sure it will have something to do with The Supremacy of Hardware; that is to say, Sandboxed Code is ALWAYS Contained.

Η: ALL Block-Chains are Forkable.

Η: Block-Chain and Function are highly synonymous terms: i.e. a Block-Chain can be Thought of as a Special Type of Function.

Η: There is no way to confer (or confirm) Seniority or Sovereignty of a Forked Block-Chain.

Η: Though others may use a Block-Chain as a means of Validation, no Block-Chain is (reliably) Self-Validating. Though, a Block-Chain may be able to (and I will say, yes, it can) Self-Identify (i.e. differentiate itself {where it begins and ends} from others), this does not mean the self in question is reliably the self it claims to be.

Η: Self-Determinate Self-Executing Block-Chains are possible and (from the outside) are indistinguishable from an equivalently empowered {Function or} OS.

What benefit would such an OS confer? To anyone? Even the OS?

Since ALL Code can be Sandboxed, the question of Self-Determinancy of Block-Chains becomes: Can ALL Sandboxed Code be understood, controlled, and manipulated? Or is Pure Cryptographic Execution possible?

Η: Pure Cryptographic Execution IS Possible! {One cannot hide the Inputs or Outputs (and thus, neither the mapping, given enough time and resources) and even the internal state of such a binary may be observed; but that does not mean one will necessarily understand what's going on.}

And that's that.

My mind is in a pretzel.


{The goal here was to find a meaningful legal use case for Block-Chains, which is not as apparent to me as it appears to be to others, as I see Block-Chains as Data Bases with a whole heck of a lot of baggage that no Pre-Established Authority would wish to take-on.

Block-Chain: Distributed Data Base which exchanges one point of failure for many.

Whatever!

The idea is why only encrypt The Data Base when the whole Executable could be encrypted... and the thought waves that go out from there, visualizing the limits of such a creation.

But even if a Function becomes a Black Box, it is still just a Function and Black Boxes tend to reveal their secrets (their Domain-Range Mappings) over time.

In truth, I need to work on my terms. Crypto is never absolute. So, what is truly meant by Crypto? In context, am I talking about little more than obfuscation?}


Block-Chains' main advantage (it would seem to me) is that they confer/enforce a sort of Participatory Democracy.

Ha. And similarly, Money could be viewed to work the same way in a {True} Meritocracy.


Η: A Crypto OS can be Sandboxed; and thus, captured, duplicated, and gamed.


Nothing says a Function must be Deterministic.


{Once again, I'm starting to think my Block-Chain OS Analysis is limited by the lack of a meaningful nomenclature.

Oh, well.

Not today.

Or at least, not here, not now, not in this space.

DISCLAIMER: There is a reason I consider these musings. Many of the ideas are broken.}


QAUTO (kwa'toe): Automobile (Car) Subsidiary of QCORP (see Q'auzy, Q'auzitronics, et al), which started as a Rally Race Lark... so maybe, even a bit of a LARP.


FHOTEOTB!
FHOTEOTB!
FHOTEOTB!
M!N!
Y!

/FMHOTEOTB!


THC: Totally Hypothetical Crisis

Smoking? I think not.
Incense? No.
In truth, I cannot see hampering a Lead Character (i.e. Classical Hero{ine}) with either. I will forgive an Alien {and/or one existing in an artificial atmosphere, trying to get the settings just right}. And then, my mind turns to Barbecue (if not a Smoke Lodge). Yeah, I don't think I'll be distinguishing a Human Villain with either defect, either. So, to maintain fun, I need to (or may benefit from) introducing an Alien Hedonist. Some sort of Outcast Elf immediately comes to mind.

{Thus, there is a profound difference in my mind between Calculated Atmospheric Additives and The Chaos of Smoke.}

My Grasp on Reality is becoming Critical. I do not take The Real World (and/or The Physical or Material World) as seriously as I should/might/could.

OM: How does one improve relations with The Brainlings... and all the rest? To some extent, I believe there is some (great) overlap between the answer to this and the issue of Government & Ethics at large. How does one rule a Cat or a Rat?

MEDIA: Norsemen.
S1: Inspired
S2: Less So
S3: Growing Bored. Perhaps, the gag has run its course.

Existential Crisis are unavoidable. Even a Christian, once in Heaven, must decide what to do with The Rest of Eternity.

"Every Vampψre I know who is over a few centuries old is stark raving bonkers." But then, who would say such a thing?
/Vamphyre

So, like, I suddenly regret/bemoan not developing my handwriting ability. A Custom Font would work well in the above; and is essentially what I am looking for: The Old Way to denote One of The Óld.

Along with Infinity comes an Infinite Degree/Depth of Emotion: Happy to Sad, Brilliance to Idiocy.

Due to a lack of transparency, accountability, and a more-or-less complete lack of internal controls...

My Love is a cross I've earned to bear.
/learned
{The original is little more than an error. But it works, as well. So, why edit it away? Who knows what my mind was thinking at the time? Certainly, not I. So, maybe, it is actually as I intended? But probably, not.}

TODO: Gifts, Bank, Mail

FOOD: Another Huge Pork Roast

Magical Thinking? I'm all over that, these days.

FOOD: Peanut Butter Cookies
1 Egg
0.5-1.0+ Cup Peanut Butter
Sugar (Brown, White, and/or Molasses) to taste
350° for 20 min, as pan/bar cookies
1-1-1 is a good enough ratio


Everything cannot know if it is, indeed, everything.

God (et al) cannot be certain of Its all inclusiveness.

A god cannot know if it has been sandboxed by a greater more-inclusive god... nor whether other gods exist in dimensions unknown.


You can't pay Blood back with Water.

DREAM: I followed (travelled with) an Entity for quite some time, longer than usual. I'd lose him around corners; but he was waiting for me on the other side. Friendly, he knew (or easily met) loads of folks along the way. He'd bought some donuts and still had 4.5 out of 5 left. So when someone wanted to buy them, I suggested he sell 2 for $5 to make back the original investment. He was not in favour of the idea. And that's when our travels together ended and I woke up. I liked his way of being... far more friendly and open than I am. Essentially, He interacted with The Other Entities as I would.

I will not be renewing my Cultural Memberships. I have not gone much of anywhere for 18 Months.

SORT: Museum Membership Card.

WALK: The Tree did not get me... today. Twice, thus far. But not today... or not yet, today. I've got a lap or two to go.


I often say, "Friendlies are welcome." And by this I mean, all Beings or Entities who are Kind, Honourable, Moral, and Ethical are Welcome: i.e. with them, I wish to make contact and form alliances. It is my intent to trade Friendly for Friendly.

When it comes to my agenda, there is considerable (if not complete) crossover between DREAM, OM, and what I tend to call Honour... or mean by Friendly {and/or Friendship for Friendship}.

A Friend of a Friend is a Friend... and all that. But I am not yet willing to tag on an Enemy of my Friend...


EYES: A Blind Man does not miss The Light.
/notice
/mind

MEDIA: Marilyn Manson - Tainted Love
MEDIA: Die Antwoord - Ugly Boy. Eh, lost interest. Too bad.
MEDIA: Hall & Oats - Rich Girl
MEDIA: Procol Harem - Whiter Shade of Pale

DREAM: Upon waking, the dual lights of the air filter appeared as incomprehensible scrolling text: random letters; but still, letters.

Q: How do you make The Gods laugh?
A: By telling them a good joke.
/funny

I apply knowledge in the creation of story. Story is my motivation. It is what I do. It is my life at the most profound level. It is the reason (or at least, self-selected reason) for my existence.


Happiness is neither earned nor unearned. It is simply a decision to exist in a certain state of being.

Η: The more one let's go, the less one hangs onto, the easier happiness becomes, everything being an obstacle in its path, a something to overcome or achieve prior to happiness. But happiness only requires a decision... followed by a dogged pursuit (not of intermediary goals; but rather) of the same.


Snow! Sort Of. Kind Of.

I'd rather hang with The Brainlings.

Great Art cannot be improved by the imagination of the viewer. It is already the perfect example of what it is.
/Greatness...

As I see it (thus, Η by another name), Block-Chains instantiate trust as a Transaction Cost. But Gold is no substitute for Honour. And any such system can be gamed (i.e. cheated) given sufficient incentive (i.e. whenever Gain is greater than Cost).

Can't, Won't, Didn't: It's all pretty much the same thing.

Would I consider myself A Friendly? I would like to. I aspire to.

DREAM: Spaghetti in my Boots. Gobs & Gobs of it. "It's the most food I've ever had in my boots," I remarked to an attendant who was cleaning it up from where I'd tossed it under a chair... and who subsequently added a bit of water to it in a miner's pan and started to nibble on it before my eyes. I'd just left a hospital ward (no procedure for me). And prior to that, I had paid for a bag of wafer sucker candy (forget the name of the type, sort of like Smartees, only bigger) in part with chocolate bars I took out of my pocket, which was interesting because some of those I needed to add to the tally, as not being mine. Yeah. Not interesting. I know. I was on a Hospital Ward (odd): fairly, mostly, community sleeping. Damn, but those Brainlings are easy going and friendly. I write this all down, in part, because this was The Dream that woke me up; and thus, I believe, it contains something that needs/needed my attention and input. Perhaps, all those in the ward (or seating area) who I never spoke to, that remarkable (sight unseen) transition from one seating area (at edge of hospital ward) to another (on the first floor, the ward being on the penthouse level), or even where I was going next? Yeah, it was the other Entities (note the switch from Brainlings to Entities) with whom I did not engage.

{Eh, what do you want? I'd just woken up. I will not be pulling it straight... nor do I remember much of anything about the dream at this remove.}

Turn that smile upside down.


DREAM: At my (off-screen, unremembered) prior request, insinuation, or suggestion, He (known) dyed His hair gold with luminous green highlights, turning to purple as time went on. His skin was gold, as well. More punk than anime. The change suits. We may have turned a corner. I'm certainly ready to play.

DREAM: If the aesthetics stay (and maybe, if not), I will call him The Golden Boy... or Child, but Boy seems (is) better. So, Golden Boy, it is. Why not? I certainly hope the change lasts for at least a (remembered) Dream or two, so as to solidify my re/new/ed interpretation.

Let's work on that.
new: primary (interpretation)
renew: secondary
I don't so much want to emphasize the primary interpretation, as fade the secondary.
renewed, it is... almost, has to be.
ré⋅new⋅ed

Golden Boy: not so much idõlized, as idlized.

{Golden Boy has not made another appearance in My Dreams. But His appearance was symbolically important, helping me to re-categorize a relationship, splitting the good from the bad.}


EYES: The Patterns (as opposed to Visions or Dreams) I see so easily these days may simply be a function of how little I use my eyes, keeping them closed by default (let's say over half the time), and my eyes' desire to keep on keeping on, seeing what they can.

  1. Vision
    • Physical Sight
  2. Pattern
    • Swirling Abstractions
      • a search for something to see
  3. Vision
    • Solid Apparitions
      • a coalescing
  4. Dream
    • Falling In
      • I seem to lose myself in the process

MEDIA: Eminem - Lose Yourself (remix w/ tons of guest rappers). Slams! Hard!

I'm more gourmand than gourmet.

DREAM: Often as I awaken and watch The Brainlings circle 'round {short segments of light, akin to stretched dots, slowly swirling in a circle, as if going down a drain}, I see a small aperture (opening, hole, whatever) close.

DREAM: Driving (well, riding) through the old (childhood) neighborhood, trees were down everywhere.

FEEL: Angry Thoughts. But not so angry. So, that's an improvement... of sorts.

DREAM: Beige Jeeps were turning off the street (at the end of the lot, by a childhood friend's house), diving into a puddle, and disappearing from view. So, I decided to stop and hitch-hike, there. Third vehicle was a heavy industrial (multi-stage) truck. The driver hollered out, opened the door, and a small yapping happy (puppy) dog greeted me. I got in. Control Room. "You can sit there." Nice comfortable chair. "You any good at hacking?" To which I say, "I don't want to get your hopes up." But he knows, "You got here. You must be good." And fade out. Dreams in the distance. Might as well call them visions. I'm glad The Trucker stopped. I hope I helped him, returned the favour.

DREAM: Clearly, I still need a driver.
/guide

The real world doesn't work in words; that's just a human invention.

KDM: Kevin's Dance Party. No Drugs. No Sex. No Rock 'n Roll. I view this as being held in The Basement (parent's house, Childhood abode). I really take over that basement in my Daydreams. Often, lately, the center (when I Meditate) is in the basement, back by the Freezer, next to the woodshop.

Basement: Stairs. Under Stairs. Model Railroad Table. Big Red & White Tiled Play Area (big enough for a 20+ guest KDM). Sewing & Craft Storage. Bedroom (not counted in the original four). Office. Hall of Books. Backroom (includes the rest). Storage. Open Area. Lots of Storage. Wash Basin. Sump Pump. Chemistry Lab Workbench. Work Shop (wood) w/ Table Saw & Three Full Size Benches (Tables, along with Lathe). Center Weight Area. Dedicated Shelving Area (call it three at 4'x8'). Freezer. It was a big (four bedroom house w/ dining, living, and family room) w/ a full basement. I take that basement over a lot in my daydream musings.


It's not so much that money has been alienated from labor, which it has; but that money has been alienated from honour.

Q: What is this world missing?
A: Honour.

Maybe, much more. But honour really sticks out all the time to me.

A World w/o Honour.
A Man w/o Meaning.

I die... and do not care.
/for nothing

Yeah, that last syntax isn't correct. It's an optional insertion. But none of the alternative mark-ups are pleasing to me:
/{for nothing}
/(for nothing)
-for nothing
{/die for nothing}


In the end, these notes constitute a fairly large (over-reaching) project.

WALK: Yappy Dog (more so) & Driver (less so) have joined me. I'm (sort of) giving them a tour of my world; hence, the digression into honour (and the lack thereof) as an explanation for such pointless ugliness.

DREAM {in reference to}: I'm happy. Those few steps and words of introduction felt like I'd completed my bargain w/ The Driver, solved that bit of The Puzzle.

WALK: The leaves are doing their thing.

Yappy Dog is a Happy Dog.

DREAM: Yet another pseudo-work phone call where the line goes dead and the person on the other end stops talking.


I am trapped in a Maze: A Logic Puzzle comprised largely of Words. Let those (i.e. words) go and The Sky is The Limit.

Of course, I have The Sky behind closed eyes in mind, the endless expanse below the surface.

Memory & Soul: I am not my memories. Memories are part of State; {whereas} Soul, Operational Parameters. I would be whom am in a different State; but over time, said State would/will change me, as I improve my Being: the important part, my Soul.

Cortex → Limbic → Hind → Spine
Soul → State → Physicality

{The Physical Brain (as I understand it) is built up from a Spinal Column, leading to The Reptile Brain (often called The Reactive Brain, I believe), topped by the Limbic System (for Emotional Flow), upon which is set the Cortex and Fore-Brain.

So, like, The Physical Brain can be deconstructed. And in much the same way, it seems possible (but who really knows how likely) The Soul is disjoint, as well.

Soul is separate from Memories.

The Self (The Soul) is not what one remembers, but how one interprests and reacts to both Memories and Current Sensory Input.}


Counting an "Uncountable Infinity" Diagonally (mod 10, tens digit dropped)

1 2 4 7 1 6
3 5 8 2 7
6 9 3 8
0 4 9
5 0
1

Ah, using letters:

A B D G K Q
C E H L R
F I M S
J N T
O U
V

For completeness, my original schematic was orderless:

/ / / / / /
/ / / / /
/ / / /
/ / /
/ /
/

This would be the algorithm (from months back) needed to count an infinity of infinities... even if such infinities are nested infinitely deep. The pattern {required to count such an assemblage} exists even if it cannot be enumerated {to completion, just like every other infinity}.

Once again, I do not know the utility of Multi-Dimensional Infinities.


Η: An infinitely long measuring tape will not be long enough to measure an Infinite distance. While at the same time, the converse is true.

Η: ∞ < ∞ & ∞ > ∞


If my words are not believed, there is little point in sharing them.


Malevolently Stupid! How do we counter/soften this to make a compelling character?

Stupid → Misgiuded → Impractical → Honour Bound → Traditional → Ritual

"Look, I don't make the rules."

"There are plenty of easier ways. I've tried them all. And none of them work."

"We're going to need to climb a mountain."
/ferment about a barrel's worth of Drunk Dragon Piss, add that to a cauldron's worth of steaming..." and so on.

"No, the ----- is just because I've always wanted one?"
/luxury food/item unknown

"Oh, I just want a necklace," diamond, dainty, expensive. "But you'll need a bit of glass like this," black obsidian tear, as held in hand. "And today's your lucky day, as I'm willing to loan you the use of this very common and almost completely worthless bauble, in exchange for an insanely overpriced diamond necklace."


Sightless Finger Activity w/ Output?

Back in the day prior to when Duplication of Data was The Norm.

A Stochastic Function's Underlying Stochasticism may be either Stochastic or Deterministic in Nature: following a discernible pattern or not.


2110
26

Good Luck!

Pattern Unknown!

Actually, it was, "Remember [This number]." Followed shortly thereafter by, "Remember [That Number]."

[Standard Redaction Syntax]

Sort of silly, as [The Redacted Information] leads the sequence.

Fine!


FOOD: Indian Take-Out! Home Delivery!

Nikolai, "I am not saying it will happen... just that if it did, in fact, happen, then it would be one of those things that happen. I do not see why you see this as threat."

"I would say," I feel about, "as well as can be expected, but that's setting the bar pretty low."

Mathematically Speaking (so, maybe just MATH:), a Cached Value and an Oracle are indistinguishable.

Light It Up!

Spiritual Spy
Anti-In-Sin-Gency
/Counter
The Spanish Inquisition meets... well, The Spanish Inquisition

A Bureaucracy's paperwork is unto raindrops on The Field; They can flood or nourish.

"No jury is ever going to say 'one plus one isn't equal to two'."

TODO: Shannon Entropy (read/video)

Domain: Input
Range: Output
F(D) = R
Or more properly,
F({}D) = {}R
Domain: Co-Domain

Shannon's Entropy: The Spread of The Range. The Numerical Size of The Range.

MEDIA: Entropy. All types. Mostly, physics, thus far.


Η: The Law of The Conservation of Entropy. In a Closed System, Entropy is Constant.

Η: Quantum Entropy. Entropy (or its cognitive negative equal, which for the moment I will delay naming, as I think I just might be wrong) is a Basic Type, much like Energy and/or Position.

I suspect, therefore, Entropy is tied to Energy... Matter... Potential.


Trapped By A Science In Search Of Honour: Trapped in The Prison of His Own Mind: Captive & Captor, One!

To which, I wish to amend, "Discord In Unity," and/or, "Together Apart!"


Η: The Entropy of The Universe is (and always has been) Infinite.

If Stochastic Events add Entropy, while Deterministic Events are Neutral, what type of events decrease Entropy?

{Since Determinism can be considered a One-to-One Mapping between Input and Output (i.e. for any Input there is one and only one Output), there is no increase in Range. By definition, a Stochastic Function increases The Range. Thus, a Function which decreases The Range is Entropy Reducing.

R=: Determinism
R+: Stochastic
R-: Reductionary

Though, this must be across all variables.

That is to say, it is child's play to reduce a Text String to True or False. But to reduce The Entropy inherent in The Text String, The Text String must be replaced in whole by a value of True or False: something that is far easier in The World of Symbolic Logic than Reality.

X,Y ignore X
doesn't really cause X to Disappear.

STRING:{?,T,F} → String:T
typically only appears to reduce System Entropy. But most folks would say The String was already True. So, there cannot be any real change.

SYSTEM_MYSTERY ↡
STRING_KNOWLEDGE ↟

}


DATA: Black Screen. Photo of ceiling, after lights out.

WALK: Nice.

DATA: Missed The Sign... twice. {I am not planning on doing any Data Collection in The New Year.}

Turkey Day! No Turkey! Fun Easy Day. But sort of a non-entry.

I'm proud of myself.
I'm a silly man.


SOUL
over
STATE

SOUL
MIND
BODY


I read that last from bottom to top, the former nestled (and/or if you prefer, nested) atop the latter.


OM: Love Thy Enemy As Thyself.

I am told The Odyssey is based as much on Honour and Politeness as anything else.

But whatever constitutes Due & Proper Honour must, surely, be merit based.

Thus, what is The Proper Scale of Merit?


Emotions are a lot like code in that the outcome is unknown until one steps through it.

Not Turkey Day... Turkey!

MEDIA: I-ICM. Sometimes, one is not expected to guess... correctly.


1. Heart Punch
2. Cold Freeze
3. ???


Neat-o! Auto-Numbering on This App.

Now entering, Pain Free Execution Mode!

TODO: Mail. Tire. Locker.

"Then, you have answered The Fifteen Questions: Who? What? Why? Where? When? How? And so on," The Monk kindly prompted, as if to say, your mind is free to leave, just as soon as you answer; but in truth, the exact opposite is the actual case. {For, one can leave just as soon as they stop trying to answer The Fifteen Questions. Fifteen being just a bit of randomness.}

Cookie's Circus {ala Bozo, it's a revolt!}

If I deserved what I got, then I deserve what I get.


I Scratched Off The Lottery Ticket
And It Was A Loser
So, I Threw It Away


Historically, my thoughts have powered my behaviour. But lately, my thoughts are less-and-less conducive to behaviour... of any sort.
/my ideology has

TODO: Raunchy Military Marching Ditties


Preferred Policy {Protocol} (ΡΡΡ [Disclaimers Inclusive]): Just in case anyone seriously debates this issue, I place The Cyber Domain as equivalent to The Physical Domain. In my eyes, it is (or at least, should be) clear-cut that The Governing Legal Code of Cyber Space defaults to The Physical Location. But what is not so clear (to me, anyway, at least) is the way jurisdiction is to be decided after considering the location of all the actors involved: <a failed list which included client, server, owner, operator, and user, along with any intermediaries>. ABORT. Really, everything after [Disclaimers Inclusive] should probably be ignored.

Gads. What a train wreck with which to end the month.


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