ALPHA_CHANNEL
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I wanted this (Alpha Channel) to be more than it was.

I lost interest:
    Failing Eyesight
    Depression
    Complete Lifestyle Abort

I am literally cleaning out my computer.  Once I am done, perhaps I will never turn one on again.  Eh, it seems unlikely...

My eyesight is going.
    I don't have much desire to spend what little is left of it staring at images... creating new ones.
My attention is going.
    I can't seem to find the will to care.  I used to read non-stop and writing seemed like a meaningful offshoot of that.  But where I used to spend 2-3-4-5 hours a day reading before, I now spend... well, maybe an hour on a good day, if we wish to include social media.  It's basically, 0 hours, if we do not.

So, like, I am done.

Today is a high-day from a personal-effort point of view.  I have the will, I have the ability to do something... and that something is clearing my desk.

I wanted this project to be more than it was.

These are the scraps.

If it looks like a train wreck, that's because in part it is.

On the other hand, some of those completed projects aren't so bad.  So, it's really a change in direction: away from this, toward something else.

Darkness, maybe.

Thus, the throw it all against the wall perspective that I am taking.  Yeah, that's about how much effort I've got left in me.

Interested?

Fine.  Here you go.

No.  Well then, no harm, no foul.  This is what I could do before I stopped caring completely.

2022-02-07
(c) Copyright Brett Paufler

I'm posting it all.
You work it out... or don't.

This is what it looks like when Desire Dies... as it dies.